|I had to give Aubs a lil credit!|
We all know (well most of us know) this song title from Drake’s mixtape. But it is a good motto to live by, and it became very evident to me AS SOON as I arrived in Spain. If you know yourself, then you will not be moved when you find yourself in situations in which you are not at all comfortable, or when things start to test your inner gangster. If you know yourself and you are okay with your inner self, things on the outside become, well simply irrelevant.
It is very important to know who you are, and more importantly to be okay with who you are in life, but especially if you plan to study abroad. There are many things that are going to be new to you, that may catch you off guard, somethings you may not agree with at all, and somethings you just down right don’t need to be apart of.
Since I am about to leave I can drop these bombs on y’all without y’all sending in the troops to come get me. Instead of saving the best for last, I’m going to just start with it. So when I first walked in the door to the house of my host family in Spain, I noticed that they had a pentagram on the back of their door. Mhmm, y’all heard me a PENTAGRAM! Y’all know I don’t play with the spirits so I had to get my constitution together REAL quick.
|This was my face exactly…|
So let me just go off real quick because I couldn’t go off on her..
As if things weren’t bad enough, she also tells me, ooh I don’t know……. EVERY DAY that I need to gain about 5 kilos. Umm excuse me, I didn’t know you were a dietician since all you do is sit at home every day (and I am not exaggerating). I been #slimthick though boo, so I am not at all bothered by this (LOL, I know y’all like that slim thick). Lol, as I was writing this she just told me “you look really pretty and have a beautiful face, but you just need to gain about 10 kilos” So now it’s 10, it was 5. At this point I think she is hating and I want to tell her “if you want me to gain weight so bad, give me some of yours, you could afford to lose it.” But that would just be ugly now wouldn’t it?
*Don’t dish it if you can’t take it (but I digress).
Also, they have those little black statues around their house which are VERY sketchy to me because I think that use to be a sign of racism back in the day…
I really don’t want y’all to think this is a negative post at all, I am actually kinda laughing as I write it because through all of the things aforementioned, and all the bs, I have learned so much about myself, and found new meaning in the term “unbothered”. Knowing myself is the best thing that I could have done to prepare myself for this trip. It takes time and doesn’t happen over night, but trust me; when you get to the point where the only opinion you are worried about is the good Lord’s, your life will be so much more enjoyable.
I say all that to say this, if I hadn’t been alright with me before I came over here, I probably would have had hurt feelings every day. But I didn’t, and that’s because I was me when I came here and Ima be me when I leave.